29 June 2012

Reality check.

Today, I stepped on the scale.
Because I realized it was stupid to try to "lose weight" without having a damn clue about how much I weighed to begin with.

It was officially the most I've weighed in my whole life.
190.4 lbs

Are you kidding me?
I mean really. My damn jeans I've had for four years fit me.  Don't they? I wear the same three pairs every day...
And ok, that pretty red dress from last summer is a *bit* snug in the chest, but it still zips...
And yeah, I had to buy a new pair of shorts and they're kind of tight but they're junior sizes, which always run small...right?

Eff. That.
I refuse to live in a little bubble anymore.
I know I'm not morbidly obese, and I truly like myself a lot (mostly).
But there's no way I can weigh 190 pounds and pretend like I'm supposed to.

So I guess what I'm saying is...
Shit just got real.
 Yupp, that's me.  Wearing probably the world's worst sports bra, but when you have huge jugs, you gotta take what you can get...it's hard to find any in my size.  Ugh.

So, in an effort to keep myself accountable and really track my progress, I'm gonna take one of those pictures every month.  So I can watch my whale shrink back into a koi fish.
{i kid, it's not that bad}
But so I can at least watch myself shrink back into a size medium pant, and a size large top.
In junior sizes.

Also, I really have to do a better job of eating protein.
I kind of hate meat, and get sick of chicken after awhile so I'm pretty sure I go weeks at a time without any damn protein.  This week I've been working on cutting out some of the junkier food I've been eating too regularly, and replacing it with better stuff like salads, oatmeal, and yogurt (even though yogurt still makes me gag), so next week I plan to try to incorporate more proteins into my days.  Beginning I guess with eggs, because I just bought some and the last ones went bad before we ate any (i kind of hate eggs too...unless there's a ton of cheese, and i'm trying to eat less cheese since it's not really good for you in huge quantities).

Today, I managed to get in what I think is a pretty good starter workout.  Like I've posted before, I've been trying to walk on a daily basis, or near to daily.  I'm not a super speed walker, so I know it's not much, but since it's better than wasting all of my time on the couch I figure I'll give it a go.  In addition to that, today I did:
60 jumping jacks doesn't sound like much, but geez it's hard)
35 pushups (but girly ones)
40 crunches (because a sit up all the way isn't happening yet)
like 50 step ups (like 50 because i think it was more but idk)
30 mountain climbers

plus some light weight arm lifts, to help tone my arms. (20 reps of two things, so 40 reps)

Like I said...starter workout.
Ah well, Rome wasn't built in a day.
It's gotta start somewhere.


Anonymous said...

I think you look pretty slamming, but do whatchoo gotta do. heck, if I see progress I might even. e inclined to join ya.

.E. said...

you go girl.. I need to lose some too.. I hate the way I look and feel but am not too inclined to do much about it.. but I need to at least get back to walking more.. I am proud of you just for wanting to make a change and attempting too.. you are beautiful no matter what the scale says though.. just sayin

Stephanie H. said...

You can do it!! I believe in you. I'm trying to find ways to get more protein too since I'm all about eating healthier just to BE healthier. So if I learn anything, I'll pass it on. One combo that I've heard is rich in protein is brown rice and beans (like black beans). The two together are really good for you. That's how I justify eating out at Chipotle all the time :)

Jana Faith said...

Proud of you for going for your goals. You're fantastic and I believe you WILL do it. You seem like a determined kind of person.

Elyse Alexandria said...

That is so awesome of you!! I'm proud of you girl.

Okay, sources of protein that doesn't include meat or eggs:
-Black beans
-Pinto beans (you can make the most amazing refried-beans-without-the-refry ever! Easy, cover and soak pinto beans in water for 12 hours, drain water as necessary (but keep most of it); cook in Crockpot on low for between 12 and 24 hours, basically till they're done, mash and eat and enjoy. And you can add spices/garlic/onions/etc}
-Salmon {kind of meat, but only kind of}
-QUINOA!!! Seriously, so good. Google recipes for it. It's not super tasty alone, but you can make some amazing recipes with it and it's packed with protein.
-Almonds (yum! Add them to your salads)

K, go! You can do it! And I promise that eating better will make you feel SO much better. You will feel a million times healthier with more energy.

Love ya girl and good luck!!

Lilo said...

Lady I have no doubt that you can do ANYTHING that you set your mind to. Just remember you are gorgeous and awesome!